this week...

so lately i've been going through a couple rough spots..

and i just read the apology from you again..

i agree with what you mean its our business,

but they are my friends, 

and they care about me and when they see me crying all day at school,

i think that their going to be  a little mad.

they knew how much you meant too me, 

and thats why they were there for me.

i really wish that this wasn't happening, 

and i truly believe that you are sorry...

i feel bad for the way that i reacted,

but it truly hurt..

they tell me that your lying too me,

and that what you told me is total bull!

THEN WHAT WAS THE POINT? 

thats what makes me the most upset,

is that if i am such a good "friend" 

then what the heck was the f'n point???

maybe somewhere down the line (not saying that it will)

we can try again..

i say that i don't care about what is happening,

but it is just my way of trying to get over this...

i didn't ever think that it would be this hard getting over you..

but i am trying, with little and NO success.

 I am trying hard because i know that you don't or will ever feel the same way..

if this is what you want, and what makes you happy,

then i will try... 

just as long as your happy.

` 48 days till Alyssa comes `

- Melissa <3